A " young " Jewish hiding

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A " young " Jewish hiding his fasting ..
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This is Mousa Kabellan, fifteen years old, a
Jewish boy who converted his religion and
embraced the Islam .No one from his best friends
or even his relatives knows that Mousa becomes a
Muslim, except us who are reading his note book
that he published on the world wide web,
retelling his feelings when he welcome his first
Ramadan in his whole life, after depriving away
the Jewish and embraced Islam.
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He said I have a mix of feeling between
enthusiastic and frightening the problem is not
on fasting Ramadan itself, but on how to hide
this from my family and friends I didnt tell my
parents yet about embracing Islam. Although I am
whole heartedly want to tell them in addition to
my happiness and pride of being a Muslim, it
seems impossible to proclaim about my hidden
treasure. After several time from seeking my way
to tell them, I found it hard as a cat gets my
tongue. I am still going to a Jewish school so
that Ramadan will never be an easy mission,
because there are many Jewish anniversaries which
require eating before the sunset
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I decide to make a plan I will pretend the
disease through Jewish anniversaries, I have to
wake up before the dawn (al-fajr), eat my morning
meal (al-sohour) and pray the dawn prayer
(al-fajr) daily. Then I will convince my family
that I will eat later by the well of Allah. It
is a big problem that not too many people could
feel it. Many people believe that the
concealment era of Islam was disappeared by
persuading them selves that concealment era was
back in days through Quraish unbelievers. On the
other hand Mousas prayers prove the opposite
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Ooh Allah I need your help in every time of my
life, ooh Allah mercy me if I forced to pause my
fasting in Ramadan, ooh Allah you are the only
one who knows my intention and my compulsory, ooh
Allah the almighty I ask you to strengthening my
faith and the whole Muslims, Amen.
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Obstacles solutions. The first Ramadan for
Mousa was full of obstacles, despite all of these
circumstances, nothing deprive him from being the
inspiration soul fulfilling his faith.Mousa
said Before I embracing Islam when I was hearing
about Muslims who fasting Ramadan for thirty days
with non-stop, doing five prayers in each night
day at least, I thought it was an unbelievable
thing which no mind can accept it with my whole
respect for their personal opinion. That was
without any imaginative picture that I will
someday pray for Allah as well as they did. The
only thing I was doing is saying my prayers
before I go to the bed also going to the Jewish
school. But when I know that the Holy Quran is
our Allahs speech Mohammad peace be upon him
is our prophet, I believe that I have to do these
two strange things do prayers fasting Ramadan.
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Today is the first day of Ramadan, I wake up
before the dawn time (al-fajr) of few minutes I
dont know if that time is enough to have my
morning meal (al-sohour) do the dawn prayer
(al-fajr) I was not sure from my ability to
accomplish the first fasting day therefore, I
ate a piece of an apple I have a strong feeling
about it because I ate it after the call to
prayer of dawn (al-fajr). So I asked Allah to
mercy me give me the strength to fast I think
that I will do this day over after Ramadan.That
was my first obstacle in my way of fasting, but
it wasnt the last.I cant tolerate my friends
questions every single day or even every single
minute when will you eat? Why didnt you drink
til now?
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The first obstacle becomes many obstacles when
the Jewish anniversary came which we fast in from
the sunset til the next day sunset, so that I
compelled to eat with them.With no feel I talked
about Ramadan by a false of course when my
grand father respond I cant tolerate to hear
any news about Ramadan or Mohammad, I answered
It is good to know more about the fact of Islam
Muslims instead of things which the
announcements used to tell about them, but my
grand father as elderly used to do respond my
speech with an unbelievable words on Islam, which
make my anger increased frequently therefore I
left them and went to my room.
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Mousa still conceal his faith in Ramadan and
complete his story facing new troubles every day,
he said I do my best to tell them that I am a
human being who entitled to have his own
independent way of thinking, I told them that I
decided not to fast in the next Jewish
anniversary, my mum replied Wont you ask god to
mercy your bad-mannered and falsehood? I said I
can do this at any time during the year, why it
is specific in that day only? We continued
arguing for five minutes til I went desperately
lonely back to my room for a while, with an
extremely bitterly pessimistic upon telling my
parents that I have converted to Islam.
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The feeling of such deeply religious started
spreading more in the very deepest point of his
heart as the time as he said it is an
outstanding issue when you completely acquiesce
by 100 for your creator, then I prayed Allah to
give my Islams brothers sisters a great month,
ooh Allah lead the unbelievers to the truth.
Amen
he modernization of Mousas era didnt deprive
him from delivering each series from his Ramadan
memories in such fascinating quotations not too
many people could say from those who born and
bring up with Muslim parents. It is highly
unusual to see this very small guy who closes to
this religion communicate with us as Muslims in
this way of spiritual way of thinking, he said
peace be upon you Allahs mercy, I ask Allah
to give you the mercy that you, everybody needs
in this holy month, I also Ask Allah the
greatest Allah to lead unbelievers to the
truthful way which is Islam Amen.
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The small supplicant for Islam Mousa says that
Ramadan become more highly-good-situation from
the first step, he fasting and praying Allah to
give him the accurate consistence in a
concealment days. Mousa started reading the Holy
Quran, he thanked Allah because there was a place
can be helpful because teachers used to teach the
Holy Quran in it with a serious intention to
join it secretly, he added that he did a second
attempt to attract his parents, because it is not
easy enough to conceal a secret dominates my
whole thinking and feelings as well.
What I had done was an attempt to attract my
fathers heart to Islam I let him watch a video
clip for al-sheikh Hamzah Yusef Hansen who
considers as one of the greatest Muslims
supplicant for Islam, after conveying from the
orthodox Jewish into Islam in America the
western world generally he has a great activity
among there and also a huge popularity in the
USA. The result was absolutely pleased because it
was a first step of agreement my father loves
Hamzah Hansen a lot thanks Allah.
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Mousa made an advantage of an opportunity to help
his cousin who wanted to make a research about
the prophet Mohammad in the school, Mousa said I
ask him to lend a hand in his search, I ask
Allah to make my relative find the truth in Islam
by this search he is aware enough and
open-minded I taught him things about Islam, ooh
Allah let my family my friend find the truth in
Islam Amen.
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The last ten days in Ramadan Mousa accomplished
his memos about the last ten days in Ramadan
peace be upon you my Islams brothers sisters,
this month is going on as fast as you cannot
believe, I ask Allah to accept our prayers and
fasting. We are now near too much from the ending
of Ramadan I am waking up every day at three
oclock before the dawn time (al-fajr) to revival
the night to pray (al-qeiam), It is a fascinating
feeling, I asked Allah today as I did yesterday
to let me make friends who are Muslims in my
community which includes a few Muslims.
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The pray was sent by Mousa in the midnight, he
didnt wait too much til his pray was achieved.
Mousa said it was the first time I noticed in
that Allah the almighty responded my prays this
occurs while I was in the store shop looking for
books about our prophet Mohammad peace be upon
him to buy yesterday, I saw a Muslim family, two
women and three men, I became hesitate about
going and talking to them but unfortunately my
embarrassment deprive me, I saw them leaving the
book store so that I felt of regret. For a while
I saw my self want to go again toward them before
they get on their car but I stopped because I
thought it happened by the way not because Allah
accepted my prays.
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Another thing happened after a few minutes which
were stranger, I got in a store while I was
praying Allah secretly Ooh Allah sends me in
this store a Muslim who can help me in my
research about our prophet, I saw after this a
man who I thought he was a Muslim but he wasnt.
I still had some optimism, but it was 15 or 20
minutes later with no advanced searching thats
why I decided to search for my mum in the store
to go back home, while I was searching for her, I
asked Allah again to lead me to any Muslim, then
I could never believe a prodigy happened Allah
accepted my prays, I found in front of my eyes a
beard-man wearing a uniform I have never seen
before with two girls wearing the Hijab. With a
lot of embarrassment I went to them and say
peace be upon you, but when the young girl
looked at me, I felt of shyness again and another
chance was lost. I asked Allah to mercy my faults
and to send me more now that he is the merciful
Allah.
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Faith test My first Ramadan accomplished as
fast as I could never believe, Al-Fitter Eid
came. I was looking for a way to absent from
school go to the mosque (al-Masjid) for the
first time, with a high-extreme-enthusiasm but I
failed. I decided to tell my parent about
converting into Islam being a Muslim as well,
so I asked them to go outside to eat our lunch, I
did take with me some words about the Islam,
because of my amazement I told them about the
prophet Mohammad his life at all, I felt that
the time was done to tell them the truth but
again before I told them, I was absolutely
frightened, with no ability to say even a word, I
failed again and again.
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I felt that my life is an extremely big lie, none
knows the truth except the people who I confirmed
their friendship on the internet, I wanted to
tell the whole world of being a Muslim. I have
been hoping to pray the Friday prayer in the
mosque (al-Masjid), or even accepted the
invitation to any lecture about Islam in an
Islamic school. Maybe that day will come someday
when I can pray fast on aboveboard with no
concealment I wish I could tell my parents the
truth instead of the unique frightened I had
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Fruitages among thorns With many obstacles
harsh circumstances, Mousa found fruitages among
thorns, a bestowal among woes. He said at least
I acquired an experience about what should have
done in the following Ramadan I will fix what I
corrupted during this year. Even though Ramadan
this year was accurately hard and also an utterly
difficult exam to test my faith range, thanks for
Allah, I felt that I was successfully
accomplished it. Mousas last words were I hope
that you were subsisted a Ramadan a happy Eid
too, Allah will afford all of us on what we had
done,I beg you all to pray for me and for my
family as well to lead them to the truth way
because I have big dreams for my family to
convert into Islam in the future by the well of
Allah. Next years they will decide to fast
Ramadan too God welling
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Translated by Hala Al-Masri. \first year\
university of Jordan\ Applied English Text
source Islam story web site www.Islamstory.co
m Prepared by - Translation Campaign Team
www.facebook.com/translation.campain 2012
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